as you can see, i'm in the christmas mood already.

merry christmas and happy 2010!

see ya all next year!!

am feeling extremely restless today. must be the rain and the gloom, the gloom and the rain...the gloomy rain.

that said, the usual kakis at work are, well, not at work. i am left to my own devices. i am left with the boys in green. aiyo...

so, as the boys in green get ready for the showdown of the year, i am...not doing anything to prepare myself for the showdown. i suppose since it's after lunch, i should just try to relax and free my mind from all worries and thoughts so i can concentrate during the showdown.

oh, did i mention it was SUDOKU?

yah, i have this thing with sudoku. i love it. plus, i'm really competitive. so i wanna win at the sudoku challenge. or at least 2nd place. (one of the cheeky boys in green is really quite good at it...so i concede, that he is...good.)

what is taking them so long? how difficult is it to find some sudoku puzzles and photocopy them??? tsk...

ok ladies and gentlemen. *crack knuckles and shake head from side to side ala boxer style* i am ready!

let's go!!!

so the boss(es) and fellow co-workers are all out of the office this afternoon, either for meetings or they took leave or the day off.

therefore, i have "free" time. and i say it's "free" because obviously, i have things to do. real things. work things. but~ it's not important when nobody is around to see you do real work anyway. so why waste the chance to show that you are doing work on a day where no one is around to see you do it.

i like my logic. it makes perfect sense.

and so, i do some facebooking, play Cafe World, read some blogs, write in one and occasionally check my mails to see if anything genuinely urgent comes in that i definitely need to react to before monday. this rocks.

and i probably can leave office earlier today since i'm the boss of me. woohoo...

but! i'm meeting the cj gals for dinner. it's the joint-october babies birthday gathering. at faraway-totally-not-accessible-for-me novena. argh...no fun to travel so far. the plus point is, one of the couples stay in woodlands, so i definitely got a ride home. yippee~!

oh by the way, happy deepavali!

the good thing about being in public service is that you get to enjoy a day off-in-lieu for public holidays that fall on weekends, even if you don't have to work on the weekends. ain't that cool?

yeah, but i've got so many days to clear. what's another day? puh!

if i'm not wrong, we can expect a whole lot of long weekends next year. it's been the case for the last few years. lucky us. not so lucky for those who have to work on weekends though. been there, done that.

that said, i'm gonna start doing a very important thing. work-related. on the intranet. really serious stuff.

time to apply for dec leave.

heh heh heh =)

it's amazing what a change in "scenery" can do. i can't keep my hands off my livejournal! i keep looking at it and looking at it and it's just so...pweety.

maybe i shall change my blogspot too. so it can be prettier and i'd be more inclined to blog there.

ALTHOUGH, i don't ever say much about anything.

darns.

as you can see...i did some revamp on my good ol' online journal.

i think it's prettier, brighter and definitely more reflective of the person that i am.

also, you would notice that i cut nearly (if not more than) a year off. i think those were unhappy memories, so i'd rather just keep the happy ones with the happy moments. to fit in with the new look. there weren't many of them anyway.

took me quite a while to decide which one stays and which one goes. BUT, i am proud to say that deleting entries was quite a breeze (although i'm not altogether done with it). i had absolutely no problem deleting them.

only problem was that there wasn't a function where i can delete more quickly. i actually had to open each one up and delete them one by one.

nevertheless, it is kinda done. i'm happy with it!

yippee!

i say it all the time, but i don't think i could ever stay at home all day and not work.

i need to work.

i don't like working...but i need to do stuff.

and i just figured out today that what i would love to do, is to help people with their "life projects".

i don't have much skills, and neither am i resourceful. but i like to find for good bargains, do research...and look for resources.

what i really wanna do is quit my job and work when i want to, for people i want to. i could teach singing in my free time, just for fun. i could help friends plan their weddings (eg. the rabbit), plan all sorts of parties, cook delicious food...just because i can. i wanna have my own little cafe so i can cook delicious stuff and my friends can come and hang around all the time. hey, they can even sing, dance and perform if they want to at a little corner. maybe have a wall to stick all sorts of photos or crafts or little notes?

i don't know much. i don't need much. but wouldn't that be a ton of fun?!?




i can't work for people anymore. =/

ooh, haven't wrote in here for far too long.

was just reading friends' postings and decided i should just pen a little something before they take away my account for good. heh heh

feeling rather sleepy today cause i couldn't sleep till late last night ( or is it this morning?).

so yes, sleepy...determined not to get coffee...don't have the "feeling" for it.

ok. back to work. =)

I don't really write much in here, do i?

Maybe it's because I have another blog where i write much more regularly. More audience over there.

And I like it that not many people read this one. Keep it on the low...if ya know what i mean. 

But it's a bit too low yah? I mean, I haven't even changed my profile pic. Ok...I should. I'll try. haha...(if it's changed by the time you've read this...yay!)

Anyways, Happy 2008 to all! I know I'm about a week late but better late than never.

I hope 2008 will be a better and brighter year for everyone. I wish you all happiness. It's a simple wish, but I suppose everything stems towards happiness. So HAPPINESS to all!

May you be happy at work.

May you be happy in love (or not).

May you be happy at home.

May you be happy with your life.

May you be happy inside.

=)

i was walking to work today when i saw this auntie. mind you, she is like 40+, 50+ and a little plump.

the thing is...i saw her t-shirt. it was a dark turqoise tee with the words...

V.I.P.

Very Important Princess

 

 

i feel so insulted. :p

heeheeheeheeheeeee...

the more i think about it, the funnier i think it is.

hur hur...so bad...

i can just imagine.

 

 

on a separate note, YAY...the dance and recording studio is finally opening soon!!! everybody's been asking me when we were gonna get upstairs since we had the notice out 2 months back. now dat it's really gonna be done, it's gonna be busy busy busy...a lot of reshuffling and stuff.

and i'm hooked to da chang jin.

and dim sum dollies may be opening new shows...one on a tues! which means i can go coz it's my day off!!!! yay!!!

and...did anyone hear me sing on 93.3FM last last sat??? heehee...it was a short segment...alright ah...but was very cool. weixiong asked if we wanted to go again for the sat that just passed but too short notice to prac. maybe next time lah...i hope got another time...dat'll be fun!

how's dat for incoherence yah?

alrightey...back to work!

my convo is on tues, and frankly, the only truly excited people are my parents and my granny and uncles and aunties. yah...the whole extended family. it's after all just a long, boring ceremony where they pass you a piece of paper you worked 16 years of your life for, but not so to my whole family. you see, i am the first-born of my generation, and the first in either sides of my parents family to get a degree.

yes yes...all hopes on me...finally, they can fly with it. (yawn).

you see, i'm not as keen and excited because i'll be representing the charlie's angels. stef and shir ain't gonna be there due to monster "WORK". actually, if my convo fell on any other day/time, i might have had a problem. so happens it's on my only off day and, it's in the morning.

but enough about convo, because i felt i had "graduated" long before my exams were even out. i had been thinking about how i've lived my life so far, and now that i'm officially working, it's a whole different thing. i mean, even though i've taught tuition and earned my own keeps, it's just totally different.

i guess it helps that i am independent by nature. since a couple of years back, i'd stopped taking a cent from my parents. the only thing they had to pay was my tuition fees (which were a killer cause they paid it all up, no loans, no cpf). i paid for my own internet and hp bills, my transport, food, and any other expenses...all on my own. in a way, it felt as if i was already surviving on my own.

true, i may not be earning big bucks, but i love what i'm doing. i'm very lucky to have been able to do something i really like at such a young age. i mean, some people spend their lifetime doing a job they hate. of course, there are low times and times when i wish i could just stop, but at the end of the day, i still like doing everything i am doing now. the money isn't great but it's good enough for someone like me. money isn't everything. i'm not only paying my own bills, but my home bills, and even can afford to give my parents a little something every month. it feels good to be able to provide for your family instead of relying on mummy and daddy. i think that was when i really knew they were proud of me, not just what i have achieve or going to achieve.

it's all about the present; not the past, not the future. NOW.

that's something anthony told us a couple of days back. i must be really blessed or something because throughout my life, i always had mentors to guide me. my first mentor, was my band instructor, lester lim. come to think of it, i haven't seen uncle lim in a while, but i always regarded him as the first person to guide me into the wonders of life. anthony is another mentor. he has taught me so much and let me understand myself so much that i do get amazed at time. surprisingly, both of them are similar. i mean, both are music people, and they always seem to make complicated things sound so simple. it's amazing what they've been through and how both of them try so hard to groom young people like me.

know what, the word is "giving". few people can give. those are the two that can "give". and they sure give a lot. sometimes, being so giving become a fault, because there will always be people who don't appreciate it and shoot arrows towards them. things happen for a reason. that's why we learn from experiences. it may be a hard and painful lesson, but you learn from it, and you move on.

i dunno how things will turn out in the future. i dunno if i'm gonna be at MC all my life, or carve another path on my own. seriously, i dun wanna think about it, because it doesn't matter what happened or what will happen.

what's important is what i am doing now.

and that i keep a clear conscience at whatever i do.

and that i am happy.

 

so many things i wanna write about...but a couple of things in the way.

1. time...it's nearly 2am and i gotta be up by 8am tmrw to go back ntu to collect damn convo stuff. then i gotta rush to MC to open up...and probably stay there till who-knows-when...like i do every night. it's a busy day tmrw.

2. weary...exhausion...and simply concussed. i need sleep. i need rest. i can't get any of both. maybe i dun allow myself to. maybe i just am thinking WAY too much. i can't help it.

3. too many things to think about. too much to actually type it down. and even if i do...i dunno where to start.

i keep thinking i'm at the point of no return. like no more "...", and instead, just ".".

makes sense? i keep thinking...i dunno...i really wanna think somemore, yet i dun want to.

SO many things to think about.

nobody to tell it to.

which is why i can't wait to meet stef and shir this coming fri. we were supposed to meet last fri, but we din. i've been dying to meet them, but it's ok. i know they are busy with their stuff, and so am i.

but we need to meet. we just HAVE to, and we will.

we will.

i used to think i had a job...that was about 4 days ago. today, i am not that sure i still have one.

the most ironic thing is, i really dun wanna do anything about it.

in a way, i kinda wanna get settled down and start earning some bucks, albeit not-so-big bucks.

BUT...i got quite a couple of commitments now and, seriously speaking, i'm quite sick of being neither here nor there. i guess not so much sick of it, more like used to it.

like i'm used to being sick...now that i have been sick for about...oh, let's see...2 months?

yah...and it's not even VERY serious illness...just the old flu and sore throats...one after another.

hang in there stef...u are not alone...

2nd anniversary concert os 3 weeks away...not stressed...not stressed at all.

AND thanks to my mum, i am sooooooo damn tired every night. she just made me move my stuff...i am changing rooms...going into the master bedroom. YAH!!! it's mine...but kinda lost the princess-y feel. haiz...well, still a nice change, if not for my mountain of rubbish. trying to clear stuff and  organize stuff around. tiring...............

and now i am hungry.

chinese opera.

the module that i went for...less than half the time.

the module that i studied for...less than a day.

the module that i went for the exam...and rushed through the paper because i wanted to leave half an hour before the paper ended.

the module that...

 

 

i got a B!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wahahahahahahahahahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

i read two books over the weekend...confessions of a shopaholic and shopaholic takes manhatten.

i know. not exactly the high-cultured literature material but well, when u get bored...and with my younger sister (the air-stewardess) trying to be cultured by actually reading stuff without pictures and buying books as if they are on discount....you know, it happens. my mum seems pretty amazed...not at me reading 2 books in 3 days, but that my sister is reading at all. she reckons if my sis read when she was younger as much as she reads now, she would have never had a problem in school.

but like i said, you know what boredom does to people.

and now that i have effectively consumed TWO (crappy) books, i feel very...linguistically-efficient.

and bored...coz my sis is STILL reading the third book of the series. she is a tad slower than me in the reading speed department. looks like i'll either have to rip it away from her...or wait...very patiently.

anyway, i was so busy on saturday coz of tuition and MC. i didn't reach home until pretty late coz of work. i was soooooo tired and i had to wake up early on sunday for dance rehearsals. and i'm not even dancing...just in charge of the rehearsals...u know...

so after a grande starbucks coffee of the day and a delifrance tuna and mushroom feuille, i went through a series of scares, elation, disappointment, comfort and then relieve through the dance rehearsals.

think i'm used to it already.

after lunch, i went home to rest and finish reading the first of the two books, while waiting for my parents to return. my sisters, meanwhile, were watching vcds and swooning and Taiwanese idols, something i haven't done in quite a while. think i grew out of it already.

my parents came back and my mum and sisters started dolling themselves up for dinner. i reserved a dinner for us five, two hours before we were scheduled to go out for dinner. i had decided we were to eat at banana leaf apollo at little india. actually, most people avoid little india on sundays (especially), but you'll soon realise it's the ONLY place u can call up and reserve just TWO hours before your dinner on mothers' day. it really is.

anyway, i was confident it wun be packed coz i just know it, which is why i made such an assumption, which turned out true.

HA!

we had fish head curry, masala chicken...my mum and dad had naan and they absolutely loved it. it's supposed to be a treat from my sisters and i, but me being BIG SISTER and all, i think i'll cut them some slack.

i'll probably get money from them when i get broke...like when i come back from bangkok.

this, my dear friends, is what you call...investment.

let's see...

hmm...

IT'S OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrr!!!! (nana does the roar...similar to the jaguar who escaped...)

yes, ladies and gentlemen. i have finished my exams. the last exam of the semester. the last exam of my university life. THE LAST EXAM EVER!!!

next week, i'll be embarking on the last presentation i will ever make in my entire 16-year academic life.

wow...i have spent about three-quarters of my life studying (or the likes). i can't believe the amount of time i've wast...err...spent. i can't believe that's it. i mean, this IS IT. just like that.

i still remember the first day of school, primary school, secondary school, jc, uni...and it's just all gone. all summarized in 1 piece of paper, which i will photocopy and burn/tear the copies as planned.

i am graduating already? i couldn't sleep last night just thinking of it. that's why i slept on the train standing up while trying to read my notes this morning.

and no, i didn't rush through my paper like the last one so i could finish earlier. this is NOT a GE.

kinda overwhelming really. feel so much lighter already.

plus, man u TRASHED newcastle last night during the FA cup semis. woahohohoho...i know, i should have been studying...but whatever. WE ARE BACK PEOPLE!!! this season has NOT ended yet. no no no no no...

my tummy feels funny. think it was the four baked chicky wings i had last night. yummy-licious. my cough's back but so what? it'll be gone soon. i know it. hahahahaha...

see my accomplished rodent!!! so cute.....it looks more clueless though...

i out-do myself!

i planned to get out of the exam hall an hour after i get in, but i only got out 1.5hr later!!! wow! i can't believe i rushed the paper so i could leave early. trust me, this is the ONLY paper in my entire life that i couldn't wait to get out. hahaha...i amaze myself.

what? it's chinese opera. like...urgh...

one last paper to go and it's au revoir to schoooooooool~~~~

but let me concentrate on this ONE paper...446. screwed, i say. i have so much more to study. i'm just gonna pick stuff out to study. whatever will be, will be.

and to comfort myself while i am procrastinating...today is study day...i did some already. it's just rest time now.

right...

see how i contradict myself all the time?

my coughy and stuffy nosey is getting better, but i bet drinking a cold cuppa coke doesn't make things better, eh?

-sips cold cuppa coke-

let's fantasize about my after-exams-for-the-LAST-time plans to motivate me:

• BOEING BOEING.........
• BANGKOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sawadeeka~~~

and that's about it...relak la, brudder...

first up...i think i'm just gonna look forward to the next season of EPL. nuff said.

friday was our theatre performance. phew! to act in 3 and direct 1 is no mean feat i tell ya. so glad we got through with it and survived it. great job girls! thanks to wl and ade for coming and see us make a fool of ourselves...ok, see ME make a fool of ourselves. i swear...never to wear RED lipstick ever!!!

what's left is the journal, which i can't be bothered to write yet.

and then, there is this 800-word review i have to write for chinese opera. OH MAN! i can probably get it done in less than an hour...but it's the embarkation of it that i dread. it's due on tues. tink i'll just get it over and done with by today...i hope.

then, there is the chinese opera exam on wed. DREADFUL!!!!!! it's crap lah, but...u noe...u get the jitters when it's ur FINAL semester in ur FINAL year of education, presumably so. yikes!

come next monday would be my FINAL PAPER in my entire education (provided i dun go do other courses or get a masters). YIKEEEEEEEEEESSSS!!!!!!!!

the thought of it brings jitters and shivers to my bones. u can actually see my bones shaking coz i am so boney.

haha...not funny...hrmph.....

me having cough cough and sniffles. they are just irritating me more than making me feel weak, because i am not weak...i am STRONG...la la la la.

but they irritate me all the same.

i bought a new blue ball-point pen for my exams.

just let me GRADUATE!!!

(p/s: i like the blah rodent...looks so much like me, 'cept i look pweetier...